I'm tired. For two nights now Andrew has been sick with a cold and he has been snoring up a storm. He rarely ever snores. So, for two nights I have had terrible sleeps. Anyone who really knows me knows that I like my sleep. I really do. I don't need to sleep in forever, but I like it. I like to have a good, sound sleep. I am trying to get the best sleeps I can now because in a few months I am quite sure that they will be interrupted by jabs and kicks with a little heartburn thrown in here and there and maybe some charley horses as well. Anyway, last night I couldn't take it and went to sleep in Bethany's room on the floor. She happened to wake up and started jumping up and down in her bed saying "Mummy!". I gave her some cuddles and rocks and then put her back in her crib to sleep. Sleeping in her room was not going to work. So I went to sleep in the couch. I kicked Kuma off and got myself comfy (well sort of) and then somehow fell asleep. He joined me later. Yeah, not the best sleep but better than hearing the snoring. It's not Andrew's fault. I know. It is just hard to deal with when you are a light sleeper like me AND you are really tired.  I am hoping we can purchase an air mattress so that I can use that in circumstances like this.

Tomorrow we are having a Canadian Thanksgiving feast with my friend Mereana and her family (M is from here but her husband is Canadian and she lived in Canada with him for 9 years after they got married and they moved here earlier this year - her husband is also the bishop of our ward), my friend Val and her family (Val is a French Canadian married to a Kiwi) and Mereana's parents and brother (Jonno - a good friend of Andrew's). I can't tell you how EXCITED I am to celebrate thanksgiving with them. I'm making pumpkin pies (well, truth be told I'm using butternut squash because the pumpkins here are different from our orange ones in Canada and don't taste nearly as good) and buns, Val is doing chicken and stuffing (turkey is way expensive here and you can only find it around Christmas time) and Mereana is doing the veggies, taters and cranberry sauce. I am so STOKED got the feast and the togetherness. I love Thanksgiving and I really miss celebrating it here. I am glad that Mereana and I have become such good friends and that we arranged this.

We had the General Conference Broadcast this weekend. I went to the Saturday morning and Sunday morning sessions. I really loved President Uchtdorf's talk "You Matter to Him". It was a message that I needed to hear. Perhaps many of you feel the same. It is so easy to feel like the day the day things that I do - laundry, cooking, being a taxi, cleaning, mothering, being a wife, supporting Andrew with work and school and callings etc - are not of any great significance. And it is so easy to feel lonely, whether you are married or not. It is easy to fall into the trap of discouragement that Satan lays for each one of us. I often feel alone. I often feel discouraged....like maybe I'm not doing enough with Bethany - not taking her to enough playgroups or putting her in lessons or taking her swimming, not giving her enough fresh air, not giving her enough variety of food to eat.....the list goes on, Listening to this talk was rejuvenating. It reminded me that Heavenly Father really does love me. That he is mindful to me and that I DO matter to him.We all do.I will leave with this quote.

"no matter where you live, no matter how humble your circumstances, how meager your employment, how limited your abilities, how ordinary your appearance, or how little your calling in the Church may appear to you, you are not invisible to your Heavenly Father. He loves you. He knows your humble heart and your acts of love and kindness. Together, they form a lasting testimony of your fidelity and faith."

Dieter F. Uchtdorf
Second Counselor in the First Presidency