A new year

It's the 3rd of January 2012. A new year. As with most new years I try to create goals for myself that will help me to grow and develop and learn. One of my main goals that I really struggle with is finding time for myself to do things that I enjoy. It is tough with Andrew working AND going to school but it needs to be done. I need it for my own sanity and peace of mind.

A new blog skin for this new year would be cool too. Any suggestions?

There are some things to look forward to this year...such as the birth of Baby #2 in May. I hope that it goes much more smoothly than the last. I know what to expect this time around though and I feel stronger and able to be more assertive and these are both strengths.

Since it is a new year I am thinking that it is time to start getting rid of the soother. Mostly because Baby #2 is coming a long and I really don't want to deal with two kids and looking after 2 soothers. I have mixed emotions over this. I know that Bethany can't have a soother forever.....but she is so attached to thing when she is sleeping that I dread taking it away and seeing her so upset. I've thought about encouraging her to throw it in the garbage but I think that this will be quite traumatic for her and she will just want to take it out again. If she sees me throw it in the garbage she will also be upset. I've thought about taking it away and telling her that it is lost, but the guilt in me shows up when I think of a. lying and b. seeing how upset she will be at not being able to find it when she knows it was there in the morning. Ahhhh....what to do, what to do? Any suggestions? It is the sucking motion that helps her to sleep so any replacement would probably be her thumb...not the best thing in terms of teeth development. Anyway, any thoughts / comments would be appreciated. Why do I feel so guilty about this?