Thoughts

I oftne "think" too much when I got to write in here. Like I focus too much on what people would like to read - as though I am writing a book or something. It is like I get "blogger's block" so, I'm going to try to just dive into things to say and think too much about it ok?

I love the stages that my kids are at right now. I don't think that I've written much about them for awhile so here it goes. Bethany is 2 and a half. Her hair is super curly and looks a lot like mine did when I was her age. It had really grown in the past few months, which is great because she was a baldy for so long. It can get pretty wild and out of control so I try my best to persuade her to wear ponytails or barretts in it. Sometime I am successful - like when I tell her that she needs to have it in two ponytails for gymnastics- and sometimes I am not. Her eyes are light brown and she is still quite tall. (I know I need to post a recent pic soon and I will, I really will). She loves her gymnastics classes and loves singing and dancing and reading and talking and being with friends. She is a busy girl but also quite happy. She does not nap anymore which is a pity because she gets really tired in the afternoon and well by dinnertime she is more than ready for bed. NO matter how hard I try to encourage her she WILL NOT nap (and hasn't for a few months now).She also loves her brother to bits. She has fun in nursery and is the loudest singer in the class I am told!

Bethany has a really special spirit. So many people love her....kids and adults alike. She has this ability to bring joy to other people's lives just by her smile and loving kindness and care for others. She is so mindful of others....always sharing and wanting to make sure that other kids are alright and are happy. Sometimes I am in awe of her Christlike nature - at such a young age too! I feel so blessed to be able to mother her. She teaches me so much. Sometimes I get it wrong....like I get impatient with her or I nag or raise my voice when I shouldn't....but she is so forgiving and I am grateful for that. I am grateful that I an learn from my mistakes and try again. Bethany is my sweet pea.

Jeremy is almost 7 months. I can't believe how fast time has gone by since his birth! It really doesn't seem that long ago that I was in the hospital...in my own room (with my own bathroom - thanks to my super awesome midwife Sharon) looking after him and feeding him and recuperating. He is such a happy, calm boy. He really only cries when he is hungry and tired...though as he gets older he also cries / fusses sometimes when I wants me. He loves his Mummy! He also loves his older sister  and smiles at her when she comes up to him grabs her shirt (he's just started grabbing and holding on to things - he is quick too!). And yes he loves his Dadddy too, but Mummy is still his favourite. When he is really tired he will curl up with his head on my chest and snuggle in with his thumb in his mouth and fall asleep. I love it. I love that he feels so safe and peaceful in my arms. I love that I can give him that security and that he has so much trust in me. Jeremy is also a special spirit. He watches and observes things and is starting to smile more at random people. He loves being tickled on his tummy and laughs out loud. He also loves the bath and kicks like mad in the water! My baby boy is such a joy!

Lately I have been thinking about what a great and special responsiblity it is to be a mother. I am grateful for this opportunity. Sometimes I get frustrated and yes, it is hard work and sometimes I am anxious to be out working and contributing to the family income. But being a mother is a sacred responsibility and when it comes down to it, I know in my heart that this is what I am supposed to be doing right now. This is where I am supposed to be. Heavenly Father wants me to be looking after my children - teaching them, raising them, providing for their needs, loving them, protecting them. This is what I need to be focusing on. This is what I love.