Ok...so again it has been awhile. I've been really busy at work and haven't had that much time to eat and sleep let alone write in here. It is Spring Break right now and though I have had the week off I feel like it hasn't been nearly enough. I still feel so tired and drained and a part of me dreads going back to work on monday where all of the craziness will begin again. This year has
been so tumultuous at school...crazyreally. I am between two classrooms which makes it especially hard. And now I have to fight over the Kindergarten space which, in all truthfulness, sucks but I am trying to work with it and I have to do some much in terms of prepping the chairs and I have to do lunch hour supervision two days a week. Anyways, I dread it all because I am just so, so tired.
In other news I've been doing well on the assignments for my ECE course. They are so easy, but time consuming. A lot of it is basic knowledge but I am learning some interesting things as well.
I was supposed to go and visit Laine in Victoria this week but it didn't happen so I made a spur of the moment decision and went to visit Nea in Kent instead. I stayed for a couple of days and had a really good time. It was fairly low-key because she has a two month old and a 17 month old but I didn't mind at all. I was happy just to be able to visit her and have the change of scenery. Her boys are so cute. Mason (the two month old) has just learned to smile so when he wasn't crying or sleeping or being fed he would smile back at me. Cole (the oldest) is super, super cute though! He and I became buddies within those two days. We played together and he followed me everywhere around the house and even into the bathroom! He kept trying on my shoes and walking around with them on and jabbering to me in his baby talk and wanting to be held. I had a great time with him because he is such a gentle soul. I miss being around babies that age. They are so much fun!
In other news I've been doing well on the assignments for my ECE course. They are so easy, but time consuming. A lot of it is basic knowledge but I am learning some interesting things as well.
I was supposed to go and visit Laine in Victoria this week but it didn't happen so I made a spur of the moment decision and went to visit Nea in Kent instead. I stayed for a couple of days and had a really good time. It was fairly low-key because she has a two month old and a 17 month old but I didn't mind at all. I was happy just to be able to visit her and have the change of scenery. Her boys are so cute. Mason (the two month old) has just learned to smile so when he wasn't crying or sleeping or being fed he would smile back at me. Cole (the oldest) is super, super cute though! He and I became buddies within those two days. We played together and he followed me everywhere around the house and even into the bathroom! He kept trying on my shoes and walking around with them on and jabbering to me in his baby talk and wanting to be held. I had a great time with him because he is such a gentle soul. I miss being around babies that age. They are so much fun!
Nea had to take Mason to the doctor one morning so Cole introduced me to many of his toys. He also played me a tune on the piano! Cole watching me warily with his "binky" in this mouth.
Mason - 2 month old. He has just started smiling socially.
One of the things that Nea and Rusty and the boys and I did was go to the Supermall, which is actually called "Supermall". I thought that this was funny and chuckled to myself. So much for orginality. I bought a couple of tees and some capris for work and Nea bought some new pants for herself too.
I left yesterday and it took me 4 hours to get home. The traffic was so busy in some parts because they are widening some of the highway. I was relieved to finally be at the border though and on my way home. I was fortunate because I had nice border people both on my way down there and on my way home.
So I had an experience within these past couple of weeks which has caused me to feel a few different things including interest, excitement, bewilderment, frustration, impatience, embarrasment and finally "okay-ness" with a choice that I made. I'm just glad that this experience was short-lived and that I can live with the outcome.
I have been thinking these past few days about whether or not I am "obsessive". I've come to the conclusion that obsessive isn't really a correct word to describe me...rather I sometimes find it hard to let-go of certain things...especially things that require me to give part of myself.
I feel like it is confession night on here for me as I write about a few different things that I am thinking and feeling. One is that I don't think that I have been a good friend to people these days. I'm not being good at phoning and chatting or emailing and keeping in touch and I am not being good at listening and using those sensors to realize when people close to me or sad or upset. I think that I have regressed in my listening and empathy skills....I used to be so good at this. I feel bad about not being a good friend. I really do. I'm sorry to those of you reading this. I really am.
I don't think that I am doing 100% these days. I mean I'm not sick or anything (believe me...my immune system has got to be the healthiest in the world....I WISH that I could get a cold so that I could stay home for a couple of days) but I am just not myself either. Things seem to be so heavy and I have been feeling less and less like being social these days. I don't know exactly why I feel this way but I do and it doesn't seem to be getting much better.
Well the lights just flickered a few times and I have feeling that the power may go out so I think it best that I just finish this blog and be done with it. It's been raining and raining all day.
I left yesterday and it took me 4 hours to get home. The traffic was so busy in some parts because they are widening some of the highway. I was relieved to finally be at the border though and on my way home. I was fortunate because I had nice border people both on my way down there and on my way home.
So I had an experience within these past couple of weeks which has caused me to feel a few different things including interest, excitement, bewilderment, frustration, impatience, embarrasment and finally "okay-ness" with a choice that I made. I'm just glad that this experience was short-lived and that I can live with the outcome.
I have been thinking these past few days about whether or not I am "obsessive". I've come to the conclusion that obsessive isn't really a correct word to describe me...rather I sometimes find it hard to let-go of certain things...especially things that require me to give part of myself.
I feel like it is confession night on here for me as I write about a few different things that I am thinking and feeling. One is that I don't think that I have been a good friend to people these days. I'm not being good at phoning and chatting or emailing and keeping in touch and I am not being good at listening and using those sensors to realize when people close to me or sad or upset. I think that I have regressed in my listening and empathy skills....I used to be so good at this. I feel bad about not being a good friend. I really do. I'm sorry to those of you reading this. I really am.
I don't think that I am doing 100% these days. I mean I'm not sick or anything (believe me...my immune system has got to be the healthiest in the world....I WISH that I could get a cold so that I could stay home for a couple of days) but I am just not myself either. Things seem to be so heavy and I have been feeling less and less like being social these days. I don't know exactly why I feel this way but I do and it doesn't seem to be getting much better.
Well the lights just flickered a few times and I have feeling that the power may go out so I think it best that I just finish this blog and be done with it. It's been raining and raining all day.
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