1 year

It was one year ago today that my Oma passed away. I missed seeing her by 4 days because I was waiting to get Bethany's passport so that she could travel with me. When I said good-bye to Oma when I left Canada a few days after getting married I had a feeling that that would be the last time that I would see her...and it made me sad.....I talked to her on the phone a few times and a few months before she died I remember her saying that she didn't feel like herself....that she felt like there were voices in her head and it was all very strange. This was strange because Oma was of a pretty sound mind and didn't have dementia or anything like that. She went to the doctor and her gave her some medication but it made her feel worse....then after awhile she said that started to feel a little better but she still wasn't herself. She felt out of bed one day and hurt herself and my cousin took her to the hospital and from there everything went downhill. She was in the hospital for so long and got pneumonia and basically got sicker and sicker. She knew that she was going to die and wanted to do so at her home so she got permission to spend her last days there with her loved ones.

I miss my Oma very much. She was one of the most beautiful people that I know. I miss her smile and her laugh and voice. I miss hearing her Dutch accent whenever she sang. I went to her church with her once in awhile and whenever she sang the hymns she always sang loudly and fervently. I miss hugging her and kissing her on the cheek. I miss her patting my arm. I miss her jokes and her laugh and playing games with her (which she often won because she was so quick). I miss seeing her so nicely dressed (she was always well dressed) sitting in rocking chair, drinking coffee and looking at the view from the front window. I miss our conversations. I miss her telling me that she loves me. I know that I will see her again someday and I look forward to that day. But for now, I miss her in my life. I miss her wisdom and grace. Here's to a beautiful woman. Oma I love you.